I'm rather nervous.
I messaged an ex-best friend of mine whom I haven't spoken to in about 3 years already (nearly four) but truth is I miss her! My stomach twists at what she would think, but she meant a lot to me when I was younger and we were like two peas in a pod so to speak; So alike and so different at the same time. Maybe if we kept in touch I could see her someday again. After all we're going to college, I'm praying she doesn't think what I have to say is stupid..

Maybe I'm hoping too much. I think her answering with a "No I don't want to speak to you" would be so much better than her not responding to me at all, because it adds a little closure to my crazy brain. I'm half excited, half scared as all hell. I hope she speaks to me.