Sometimes I think that I shouldn't be aloud to think. Is that too confusing? Why is it that I find poetry in a single shadow but could never find the beauty within things that are meant to be beautiful. None the less, I've been seeking through the threads of my life to find something meaningful. I'm questing a drastic change and I'm feeling quite adventurous so to speak; I've even came up with a to do book (and Its coming in handy) maybe I should take pictures of it later?
Come to think of it. Who exactly am I talking to? I don't have an audience here but maybe I'm just pooling thoughts and ideas for the benefit of myself.

I spoke to mother about going to clown college for the second time, I knew deep down she was not feeling enthusiastic about it. Her response (Which I should have expected) "I'm not going to pay for that." I wish money would quit ruining my life. I wish I could make up my mind.

On good notes;
I spent the day with Venus (Which is a change from the usual) I love spending time with her, it brings back old summer memories and laughs. I missed Hiro! She went to party for the weekend, something I definitely don't do but its not like she had wanted to anyway. I'm feeling poetic, maybe I'll update a poem sometime later today. Its 12:30 Am.

Labels: dreams, life, thoughts